It's a big deal. It affects your life.
It's like you only notice it when it's gone. It's like missing it when it's no longer yours. It's like that. You only know it, understand it, when you go through with it. When you experienced it.
When you lie awake thinking about it. When you stay up all day and night planning for it. When you put your social calender on hold. And people did not notice it. And people ignoring it.
I hope karma is bitchier that I am.