Monday, October 25

Chocolate chips

I didn't particularly like to share stories about my practicum. Not that it was bad, it was awesome with too many classroom management but I just don't like to bore you with the stories.

I was reading Ain's blog the other day when I felt like sharing my own story on the same matter.

The gossip started when the students always saw me and HR riding the same car together to and from school. Sometimes, me and HR did paired teaching or sometimes he entered my class to supervised the technical stuff (LCD, Laptop etc). For them, we were close.

Not that me and HR didn't try to not to be together, we did. But I do prefer to eat together. So we went to canteen on our separate ways. We sat as far as possible during assemblies and other public events.

Some thought we are married since we 'live' together (because of the car sharing). Some thought we are brothers and sisters (because apparently, for them, we look alike). Some just thought we are lovers.

So I fed their curiosity.

To some, I admit we are brothers and sisters. Another lot, I said, we are match made in heaven.

Usually, I told them a sad love story. How I really love HR and did everything I can to be with him, but he did not like me. He rejected me and he fell for my best friend. Sometimes I even add in the tears. I am dramatic like that.

They all mostly were sad for me. And never bugged me again.

And not once they questioned me.

To the teachers, I said we are just friends.

And you think only students like to gossip...



It's a big deal. It affects your life.

It's like you only notice it when it's gone. It's like missing it when it's no longer yours. It's like that. You only know it, understand it, when you go through with it. When you experienced it.

When you lie awake thinking about it. When you stay up all day and night planning for it. When you put your social calender on hold. And people did not notice it. And people ignoring it.

I hope karma is bitchier that I am.

Friday, October 22


I beg your pardon,
I never promised you a rose garden.
Along with the sunshine,
There's gotta be a little rain sometimes.

-Lynn Anderson-

Thursday, October 21

Planning is never bad

While everybody else is busy wanting to make a football team out of their children, HR rather have a group of children to make a band. You know 4,5ish. Have I mention, a rock band? It's gonna be one noisy household.

He used to date my favourite singer

I love this movie. I really don't know why people wouldn't like it. It is not a waste of time. For me, this movie is a great suspense film! I mean for a movie to only have one actor, one dark ugly tiny setting, it was awesome. Duh ~ I believe it's really hard to make a good film when the entire movie only about him in a box.

But you need to be prepared from the beginning, it only has one setting.

For this movie really can make my heart pounds thousand time faster and shed a few tears, I give it a 9.5/10.

Go watch it.

p/s: Roja dear, Happy birthday. Love you lotssssssssssssss

Wednesday, October 20

lemon zest

Today's date is cool.


I thought about doing something memorable.
But I am not inspired to do anything.

So, I drove home.

And I am at home now.

p/s: To Bayah - who is doing something memorable today, congratulations. U have chosen a good date to be remembered. Yay for you! Can't say I'm not jealous.

Thursday, October 7


I was thinking about you
I was thinking about me
I was thinking about us
How will it be?

Tuesday, October 5

Music Magic

I watched Magika just now.
I thought it was awesome.
I gave it 9.9/10 marks.
I think it was worth every HR's penny.
Only me and HR clapped after the movie finishes.

Go and watch it.

Saturday, October 2

Im all that and more

Sebagai seorang guru, aku kurang gemar akan penjual-jual di luar pagar sekolah. Selain daripada makanannya tidaklah dijamin bersih, mereka juga menganggu laluan keluar masuk. Seboleh- boleh nak jual depan pagar. Budak-budak dok la berkerumun.

Miss Dzeti nak balik awal pun susah. Dok risaukan budak-budak yang beli aiskrim tepi jalan. Kalau masa bulan puasa dulu lagi la baran je. Sedap je yang non-muslim dok menjilat aiskrim di tengah jalan. Sedangkan aku dok sibuk pusing strereng cuba mengelakkan diorang.

Tapi aku pun pernah menjadi murid. Aku pun pernah menjadi budak-budak yang beli kat tepi jalan. Aku pun selalu tak pedulikan nyawa demi ngejar aiskrim dalam roti.

Aku ada beberapa makanan kegemaran pada zaman persekolahan.Salah satunya satay ikan.

Satay ikan yang selalu jual kat sekolah tu? Yang di atas moto? Yang ada sos manis dan sos pedas?

Masa kanak-kanak riang, itulah makanan kegemaran. Sanggup tanak belanja waktu rehat sebab nak makan satay ikan tersebut.

Hari tu nampak jual kat pagar sekolah. Suruh HR pergi belikan.


Puas aku makan.

Inilah nikmatnya menjadi seorang cikgu. Dapat re-live zaman kanak-kanak. Menikmati satay ikan setelah penat bersekolah. Oh yeah~