Sunday, December 28
i dun think i need to eloborate on this frightful and dreadful moment of my life
My very own GREEN doggie.
He stays in the hole with me.
He is shy.
Next thing I know I am hugging him in my room.
I dont know if he is coming back with me to Malaysia or not. But I do hope he will.
p/s: I am amazed with people that can play boomerang. It so cool to be able to make that thing come back to you and catch it.
Saturday, December 27
So, you think you love me?
It is a band.
One of HR's favourite.
The song that I am listening to was What Sarah Said.
I am always triggered to listen to the song as the title is so intriguing.
The lyric touch me.
Like any other lyrics would.
"But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die..."
So, who is gonna watch me die?
I used to hate babies when I was teenager. I admit they are adorable but I am not the type who would hold them and play peek-a-boo like any other girls that would just drop everything when encountered with babies.
There are many cute babies in NZ. They are super cuter as they have blonder hair and bluer or greener eyes compared to Malaysian babies. Still, I cant just simply touch 'em.
OK, that's is just an intro to my entry.
Being a mother is not easy. From the pregnancy to giving birth to breastfeeding to raising the child. This is just based on observation and not experience. But mothers go through this difficult and painful phases just for their child.
One of many mother's wishes is to see their child grow up healthily and they NEVER ever want to go through the process of burying their own child before them. No mother ever wish this for anyone.
All I am trying to say, it is painful to see your child going through pain and soreness and they would do everything in their power to prevent that. They would nag, nag and continue nagging just to remind you of the DO and DON'T in one's life.
That is just maternal instinct.
They claimed that Sheryll tookthem to the highest peak of the park. Later, John went about the NZ's style of Christmas tradition . We played Christmas Cracker, which was fun. We wore crown and answered a few riddles. Oh, the best part of all, we ATE!!
Wednesday, December 24
Quote of the day
Tuesday, December 23
no more goodbyes
That's two goodbyes for my loved ones within 6 weeks. That's more than anyone can handle. It is tiring forcing tears to stop streaming down from my precious eyes.
Handling the emotion was never easy for me. Before I sent the rental car, I stopped at Foodtown buying lotsa comfort food and unnecessary stuff. That includes pastries, chocolates, magazines and milk. After that, went to JB Hifi, bought myself my favourite sitcom 'The Nanny' season 2.
Reached home, looking at the human-empty house, the tears starting to flow again. Ate laksa that mama cooked for me. Then, I saw the asam pedas and sambal ikan bilis that mama cooked also especially for me, the tears just flow as freely.
The only thing that I can think of at that time is to hurt my other body part so that my heart wont ache as much. At least I feel other pain. Not emotional pain. Stupid idea, I know. So the heart continue aching
Tuesday, December 16
sampaikan pesanan ini
tentang bicara hati sepi,
sayang mungkin berhenti,
rindu takkan mucul lagi,
jika berterusan begini.
tolong beritahu dia,
jiwa ini tak teguh,
perasaan ini tak utuh,
bila-bila boleh roboh.
tolong beritahu dia,
tiada saksi tika janji,
sumpah yang tiada bukti,
terlerai jika tidak diawasi.
Sunday, December 14
Quotes of the day
- Identical is not similar
- jiwang itu benda yang aku xbrapa nk paham (mard, 2008)
- 10% of man je xcheat (fatin, 2008)
Saturday, December 13
I want to talk about books
Sunday, December 7
last nite, me and my two brothers make cupcakes. superdelicious. we play around decorating with the icing. (masing2 nak hias letak nama awek)
having them around is a blast. ada je lawak2 sengal. but the BESTest part is U R their sister and you can bullied them around by asking them to do lotsa stuff including carrying et moi shopping bag.
mom is sick a few days earlier. too cold even in summer. the boys run happily without any sweater on their back while my mom is dress like a winter altogether with a sarung tangan. ciyyan die.
oh, i have a busy day and night entertaining them.
and i love every second of it
Tuesday, December 2
my family are here now but my mom is having flu. I am busy taking time around the ever famous Auckland city. I am so happy that they are here.
I hope it never ends
Saturday, November 29
tak sms bukannya bermaksud tak sayang.
tak call bukannya bermaksud tak rindu.
2 sms sehari tak bermakna sayang tu makin kurang.
hanya call waktu rakyat New Zealand mengulit mimpi tak bermakna apa-apa.
waktu hanyalah nombor
nombor hanya frekuensi katanya.
frekuensi tak beri apa-apa erti.
sayang tetap sayang.
sayang tak pernah berubah.
dia kata lagi,
dah dua tahun saling sayang, takkan terus berhenti.
aku terus membisu.
tak banyak yang boleh dibalas.
jika itulah penjelasan.
satu lagi alasan.
Friday, November 28
no tittle. just frustation
Wednesday, November 26
What ever happen to Dawson's Creek's hero?
The series is one of the pioneer of tv series about loveydovey and teen's stuff. Kalo tgk nowadays, mmg lame gile la.
Oh, I always wonder whatever happen to the main character of the series., w know where Katie Holmes is, so what happen to James Van Der Beek who played Dawson in Dawson's Creek.
So, within these two days, he muncul in my laptop twice. Once, smalam when I was watching How I Met Your Mother S2 as RObin's ex-crush. And today, in One Tree Hill S6 as screenwriter utk filem Lucas Scott.
Now I know where he is.
He is still not handsome to me.
Sunday, November 23
my accomplishment ~ setakat ini~
- i succeeded in teaching two persons to swim. kan? kan? bangga kan berguru kan beta?
- i finished reading two books. both chick lit and action/horor
- i finished my second bottle of lotion of the year
- i p gym semalam selama 20 minit. (sekali tu je la)
What Your Cupcake Says About You
At parties, you tend to be a social butterfly. You enjoy making conversation and making sure everyone is having fun.
You have absolutely no restraint in your life. You live life with reckless abandon.
The most important thing in your life is fun.
You are dominant, vain, and a bit of a show off. To know you is to worship you.
Saturday, November 22
petang sket, pergi mandi kolam. kolam yang dalam dan luas. oh, free jugak. rasa seronok dapat berenang2. bergurau senda. berendam2. berenang berirama. bergediks2. bergumbira. kemudian, ke jakuzi dan ke sauna. oh, sungguh bahagia.
malam sket, masak2. makan2. tonton2. dan menulis.
dan hari ini adalah hari gembira yang berpeluh.
*mendaalah = mesin di gym utk bersenam yang aku tatau nama scientific nya
it started off just as she just relaxing herself after a hard day work with her laptop and her korean drama in the living room. with her cooking and me just loitering around her longing for human companion. as she cooks, (i ate and) i watch it with her and asking this and that. ~ who is this guy? why is he like that? wow, such a long leg. lengchai a~
esok2 nya, aku yang semak nak switch on laptop beliau. (ketika beliau di tempat kerja) nak tgk lelaki itu dan perempuan itu. drama korea yang panjang dan memeningkan itu.
damn~ aku telah addicted.
Thursday, November 20
and i am a happy daughter.
i hope my mom will be to when she sees it.
my hibernation hole
my hibernation hole.
Wednesday, November 19
gaga - taggie - gee - tug - taa
take a recent photo of yourself OR take a picture of yourself RIGHT NOW.
* DON'T change your cloth. DON'T fix your hair, just take a picture.
* Post that picture with NO editing.
* post this instruction with your picture.
* Tag 10 people to do this.
this is a recent as it gets.
Date: November 15th 2008
Location: Piha Beach, Auckland
Ocassion: Summer Picnic
i wanna tag
my new house
it was tiring. it was one hell of a day.
the house is full with boxes we barely able to move around.
my two housemates are always out working.
my neighbours are creepily over friendly.
no bus station nearby.
it is always noisy with cars and lorries sounds.
Tuesday, November 18
Friday, November 14
things i do for him
I know that is his route to go to work. And I know he’ll be walking there at that time of the day. And I waited. With my big sunglasses on my nose. Disguised in my green shirt in the bush.
And, I see him.
And, I am officially a stalker.
Of course he did not notice me. Duh~
Friday, November 7
i hate to say it
it hurts. i know it hurts people when i do it, why do i need to do it to others?
in another way, i also hate it when people do what they said they hate others do.
mcm menjilat ludah sendiri.
*imagine, ur fren saying to you, "tengok si A, suka sangat pakai boot lima inchi dengan baju kurung. disgusting." oh, ia disertai dengan mimik muka nyah, ok? later, u saw ur fren doing it. the whole five inches boot with baju kurung. what say you?
plus, what will this situation say about your friend? mcm menjilat ludah sendiri kan? kan?
i have a few friends who are like that~ then again, maybe i am also like that. but i seriously wanna go and say to their faces, "ahah! look what we have here. i tot u said .. "
then again, i dont like bitching and pointing out people faults to their faces. both, hurtful and humiliating. still, i know i have mentioned earlier, i prefer not to do stuff that i dont like people do to me.
*kisah ini rekaan, maybe chantek je boot with baju kurung. who knows?
Wednesday, November 5
penat fikir tentang duit.. cukupkah?
penat cuba selesaikan tentang kediaman.. manakah?
penat fikir tentang periksa.. berjayakah?
penat cuba mementingkan orang lain dari diri sendiri.. bergunakah?
penat fikir tentang summer school.. perlukah?
penat cuba jadi yang terbaik.. pernahkah?
penat mengemis kasih sayang.. tak malukah?
penat mengemas bilik yang tak berhenti bersepah.. berbaloikah?
penat meyakinkan diri.. percayakah?
penat mencari yang mungkin akan mengerti.. wujudkah?
penat menyeru kekasih jangan pergi.. mungkinkah?
penat meyalahkan diri sendiri.. mampukah?
today i met a person who doesn't know Oprah ~ it's quite interesting~
Saturday, November 1
He is my hero. He is the man I look up to. He is the man who has all the answers to every questions in the world. He is my savior, my knight in shining armor.
I would never want to see my dad shed tears. For whatever reason. It would be too heartbreaking for me. My hero should always stand tall. Strong and powerful.
I hope he will always be the tough man in the family.
I hope I will never do anything to make him less than he is.
Friday, October 31
wanna do soul searching
There are some questions that I can answer brilliantly. There are some that makes me ponder for a while. Others, I don't know the answer at all.
Then I thought, I am so unaware.
Sometimes, he also asks about afterlife. I realized my answers are clouded with the English movies that I've watched. Most of the time, I am never sure with my answers and just say, maybe.
I feel like I'm in need of change and soul searching~
At first, I was like, who cares what the neighbours think?
Still, when it comes to going to a feast in the neighbourhood, of course I'll go. It's free food, meh. but when it came to the part that will need me to mingle, especially with old people (mom's friends), i got shy. I am always shy~
I spoke when was spoken to. But I did attend the ceremony. Regardless how boring. How I know no one. (This is a requirement when you are the only daughter and you are your mom's sidekick) I did recite the Yassin when needed, helped clean out when asked, stand when there was no seat available for older people.
My mom never let our garbage melimpah until near the road.(melimpah dengan ranting2 pkok bunga atau daun, if you know my house, you know my mom's obsession with gardening) Sweep our part of the road. Cut the grass on our side. All those little things that people like would say, yeah. whatever. My mom made it a priority.
Living in a country will countable Malaysian, and no elder, wiser Malaysian people, hidup bermasyarakat becomes very crucial. Of course, Kiwis never care, you can go to class with no slipper, come to dinner with pink spiky hair or even come naked. Kiwis wont care. We, Malaysian only have each other. We fake smile to cherish this hidup bermasyarakat. After all, our comunity is small. If we fight among one another, there no longer will be 'we'. Just either you or me.
HR lost his dearest sister the other day. I realized that community is very important. We need each other to be strong. For HR, you know Ill be with you.
Thus, attend every event you are invited to and fake smiles when needed. You dont need to like the person. Be there for one another when needed. Help out if you can. Obey the leader when their are right, correct when they are wrong. Our leader represent who we are.
Tuesday, October 28
tag - gee - tug - tee
diriku telah ditag oleh beliau ----> Ixora, teman seperjuanganku zaman kanak2 ribena
1. When was the last time you ran?
To avoid the rain you mean? oh every two days here in auckland.
2. Do your jeans have rips, tears and holes in them?
Intentional one you mean? Nope~
3. What are you dreading right now?
Now? Cohort 3 party. My mom's arrival.
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?
Do I know what that is?
5. When was the last time you saw your significant other?
I hope there will never be a last time!
6. Do you get the full eight hours of sleep every night?
If u include the day time is 8 hours
7. What is your favorite current song?
My favourite song is not current ~ Fantasia Bulan Madu ~
8. If anyone came to your house on your lazy days, what would you do?
Entertain them like I always do.
9. Who last grabbed your ass?
10. Have you ever been in your school’s band?
Nah~ was born tone deaf
11. Do you own a pair of Converse?
12. Did you copy and paste this survey?
Tak syiok la~
13. Do you eat raw cookie dough?
Only if it is tasy. It usually is since I did it.
14. Have you ever kicked a vending machine?
Of course. And it hurt like hell.
15. Do you hate it when a radio ruins a song by playing a slow one after it?
Radio is rare technology for me.
16. Do you watch Trading Places?
17. Have you ever stayed on line a long time waiting for someone?
Duh~ erm, yes.
18. Are you ‘cocky’?
Tak paham. But I am cute. HR said so~
19. Could you live without a computer?
Been there done that. I am alive aren't I?
20. Do you wear your shoes in the house?
21. At what age did you find out Santa was not real?
Sejak lahir. I guess I was born smart~~
22. How many phones, house phones and cell phones are there in your home?
this house? 5 cellphones
23. What do you do when you are sad?
I force HR to symphatize, regardless
24. Who would you call first if you won the lottery?
25. Last time you saw your best friend?
Still, hoping there will never be the last time.
26. Who, or What sleeps with you?
27. Are you still in High School?
Nope. I do look like o
28. Is anyone on your bad side now?
29. What jewelry are you wearing now?
30. What is the first thing that you do when you get on line?
31. Do you watch Grey’s Anatomy?
Used to. Not anymore. no more addison
32. Would you ever wear a boy/girlfriends clothes?
33. Where do you work?
If shopping is considered as working, Queen St.
34. What are you doing on Friday?
35. Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson?
Do I look like I care?
36. Favorite name for a girl?
37. Favorite name for a boy?
38. Will you keep your own name when you get married?
I loike my name. HR likes it too
39. When was the last time you left your house?
Like the last 30 minutes.
40. Do you return your cart (I assume trolley)?
Kite guna bakul je.
41. Do you have a dishwasher?
42. What noise do you hear?
Britney Spears is not a noise
another raya picture
my mom dgn susah payah email me the picture and her subject was written in capital letter,
btw, nina tuh, yours truly la.
oh sungguh terharu.
n today is my mom's birthday.
Sunday, October 26
gone has my days
so, ill update you with my hectic life so far.
last nite we held a diva party and it was a blast.
last nite acap returned my laptop fully functioning.
yesterday went to view two houses
yesterday went to eat a delicious food
the day before submitted my Phono's assignment
the day before held meeting for presentation
before that, i forgot.
but it was a hectic week.
this following week supposed to be a study week. I am supposed to relax first because my exam is on the 3rd week.
not for me. i got another assignment to submit. another presentation to do. another party to held and ensure it to be a great success.
Thursday, October 16
I have a lot of assignments. I also have uncountable lots of laziness.
Today, I send my precious thing to the repair shop. I mean HR send it. I supervise him through the phone. My precious thing is so screwed up even Intan cannot help me. That repairing will cost me money. It is beyond help and of course it will cost me money beyondly.
Hijrah lend me her VAIO. I am so super cautious using it. Scary meh~ New expensive laptop. I am thankful for it though. Apparently is my HD, so any attempts to do assignments are not taken.
Today, I involunatarily clean out HR's closest. Then, he belanja me SUSHI. I loike~
Today, I think I am gonna cook Tom Yam.
That particular girl is my closest friend's friend. I am not particularly jealous. But I really dislike it. In a way, I know that I wont approach the guy, ever, ever. Still, I want him to be single, to be mine. Then again, he has his needs. MAN! I hope he is happy with the girl. I know I am a better girlfriend than she will ever be. (You can ask HR for reference) I will be a great girlfriend to him. His lost.
Wednesday, October 15
kesayanganku telah mati dan mungkin hidup kembali tanpa memori yang menjadikannya milikku
aku kini telah ketiadaan beliau. Kehidupan ku kini bergantung kepada belas kasihan rakan sekeliling dan juga komputer di perpustakaan.
walaubgaimnapun, diri ini masih bersyukur kerana pagi itu tergerak hati nurani ini untuk 'save' assignment 225 yang separa jalan itu. rasa bersyukur tak terhingga.
aku menangis tak berlagu
Tuesday, October 14
So, my version of GREAT COURSE that i should enroll has these characteristics:
- no EXAM
- in the morning
- not everyday
- EASY PEEZY course
Regardless of the characteristics and fear, I shortlisted these as my choices.
- Language Teaching 102 (no exam & stage one paper, i loike)
- ESOL 201 - Writing (no exam, sick of writing thingie)
- Stats 101 (EXAM - dah ushar papernya - objective)
- Maths 101 (EXAM - ada essay Q)
- Philosophy 150 - Critical Thinking (Exam tapi mcm Senang)
So, there are my final candidates, nothing for sure yet.
Monday, October 13
stuff yang tak best jika berlaku pada diri sendiri
bersin tak lepas. Oh MAN! tak tahu macam mana nak describe perasaan tersebut. dah ada feel nak bersin dah, tapi dia tanak keluar. rasa tersangkut satu beban kat hidung. Oh~
kantoi tgh korek hidung. uihh, malu kot. dah la muka mesti masyuk habis dok gali. tak sempat nak cover muka feel. sedar2 je ramai mata memandang untuk memastikan tindakan seterusnya. akan digentelkah? akan dicalitkah? akan dijentikkan ke udara kah? pheww
rasa nak terKentut kuat2 di khalayak ramai. Oh ini sangat memalukan. tak syiok ok tengok muka orang tahan kentut. nak lepas takut kuat dan busuk. kalo nak tahan, muka mcm mintak penyepak aja. Siyyan2
baju terkoyak. kat tempat tak sepatutnya. hanya tersedar ketika dah berada di tempat kejadian. uh~ peritt betul perasaan malu itu bertandang.
stuff to let go
Oh, I am thinking of selling my green bicycle. I have no use of it since I quit my job. Or does she fired me? Regardless, I have no use of the bike now that I am not working.
There is also the black MP3 that I never use. I bought them earlier but urm.. let's face it, I never actually use it. I have the tendency to shop like a DATIN!
Another thing in mind to sell is my pink PSP. As much as i love that thing, i can count by the fingers on my hand how many times I actually played it. Damn, I DO like to spend money!
Wednesday, October 8
it just that i prefer room temperature fruits. I dun like cold ones especially the one that just come out from fridge. I rather not put my fruits in the fridge. I just don't prefer it.
Back at home, I always take out a pear/ an orange from the fridge the nite before if I ever wanna eat it the next day. I'll just put it somewhere on the kitchen cabinet.
Sometimes my dad/mom will take the warm temperature fruit that i put aside. Which of course will drive me frenzy. Since I have to wait some more to make the fruit not-cold.
Dont get me started with my anti-ness of nasi impit.
kadang-kadang lirik2 lagu tersebut buat aku nak muntah2 geli tergelak tapi comel jugak in a way.
its a good way to reduce stress.
Sunday, October 5
Beli sejambak almost 40-60 ringgit/dollar for flowers that might last for a week. Lepas tuh dah tak chantek. Buat bunga kering pastuh kumpul habuk kejap and den buang. Rugi ok~ Dah la sekuntum pun 5-7 ringgit/dollar. simpan buat makan McD pun kenyang. Buy me lotsa chocolate for 40-60 ringgit/dollar. aku kenyang dan aku suka.
o, btw, hari ni dapat bunga. dri HR la. sapa lagi?
i loike ofkos. pose manja gitew~
Selamat Hari Raya
salam, salam gak, mata pandang kamera, ok!
ni spontan je, nisah disebalik kamera
makanan raya: nasi tomato, ayam masak merah,
nasi impit, acar, serunding, lodeh/lontong, teh susu, punch.
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN
p/s: tak perlu lah aku tunjuk sapa yang datang rumah, banyak sangat.
Friday, October 3
tag by mard and cik ten
* Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
* Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
* Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
* Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
- i'm my dad's daughter. kedekut. like my dad. di-trained dgn hebat sekali
- i like to daydream. about colourful stuff also crappie stuff thati know will never ever ever come true.
- i always feel 'something' when my buddies, old frens or bff skola2 dulu dah move on and has new bff. Jealous kot. Walaupun tuh sebenarnye natural je, since i moved on too, tapi perasaan tu tetap ada.
- i dont like crowd, rasa semak. so, i prefer not to go to any concert or stuff like that unless ada sitting arrangement.
- i tak suka buat benda yang remeh. as in leceh dan renyah. im not a particular person.
- i remember masa kecik pernah kena marah ngan mama sebab i conteng muka barbie i. mama tanya kenapa conteng, i jawab, "sebab barbie dah hitam. dah tak comel." maka semalaman i had to cuci the barbie back because it was expensive.
Tidak ku perasan ada enam je instead of seven. so here is another one about me
- i hold on to the 'if i dun like, other people wont like it either' prinsip. macam if let say i dun like people kutuk my cooking, i supposed others wont like it too. so i wont do it.
Syawal in Auckland
AidilFitri in Auckland is almost the same in Malaysia that I usually have except of the lack of 'duit raya'. Oh yes, no visiting cemetery. I did suggest to my housemates to go visit cemetery since there are many cemeteries around Auckland CBD itself, but they refused. They said those arent Muslim's. It will be too weird if people caught you reciting Yassin there.
Oh, mama sent two baju raya for yours truly. One is orange and the other purple. With the tudung as well. Look gorgeous like always.
Sunday, September 28
selalunya tolong ati buat kuih. as in dia buat adunan aku amik sket buat design suka hati dengan kaler suka hati. aku suka. comel sangat sampai tak sanggup nak makan. nanti ill post the pics.
tapi tadi cubaan buat kuih ku gagal. habeh dwet juta2 tapi haprak pun takda. jadi aku amuk dan membaling semuanya ke laut. hyperbola. ya. baling ke sink je.
hati sangat marah kerana tak jadi. tanak buat kueh raya dah.
Friday, September 26
ten lines experience
this is my ten lines expereince of the day.
"I started my day with glancing at my clock beside my bed. It was still early. I dozed off back just because I could. The sun was shining brightly outside. it was going to be a good day. I woke up and had my shower with lots of bubbles from my shower cream. i always like my shower time. I sang and I danced in the shower. it was time to choose my wardrobe. Think! Think! sunshine outside, so no sweater for me."
I know it does not seem like not ten lines. But it is when I wrote it with my pencil. Seriously~
Wednesday, September 24
bihun sup utara
i dunno how to do the bihun sup utara style or what's the difference but i can picture the taste in my mind. bila buat tadi, rasanya mcam bihun sup. seddapp!! tapi bukan seperti yang dalam bayangan. tak de rasa umpphh UTARA itu.
oh tetiba terfikir laksa telok kechai. OMG! lagi la susah nak cari.
o, laksa telok kechai tuh, macam laksa biasa tapi kuah dia lain.
dulu-dulu masa kanak2 selalu beli kat pasar pagi jumaat kat sekolah tunku anum.
masa dok kat kedah la. sekarang tak pernah p pasar tuh dah.
p giant je. atau supermarket yang lain.
nak nandos and cheesecake
Sunday, September 21
Ladies that I adore *part 2*
This woman is bombastic. She has brain, look, confidence. I particularly like her red hair. She slept with the husband's best friend (not good) but that’s only because she felt that her hubby is ‘absent’. She fought for her marriage and stick by Derek through the torture (Meredith) Derek gave her. She was not mad or showed her jealousness at Meredith, which I personally think is hard and only one tough bitch can go thru. She never mistreated Meredith. She is one respectable and superb doctor. And I adore her courage.
it's never GREY in L.A.
cool and cold picnic
Friday, September 19
Thursday, September 18
i still cant decide where i stand over many issues. still cant manage my time wisely and try to steal every second to do nothing. i still dont care about the issues that supposedly matter to the world. still like hogging the phone for a long long time. still likes to flirt around and try my best to impress THE MAN.
wish that i can be more firm, more convincing. stop day dreaming about the unbelievable dreams. read more books. be more intellectual. discuss stuff that matter to the world. see more colours in everything around me. and stop missing what i might have become and cherish what i am now.
I'll be arrived
And I'll be a friend to my friends
who know how to be friends
One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married
with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy
One day I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I'll be trusting and spacious
authentic and grounded and home
~love every line of the lyric
~not by yours truly, of course
Monday, September 15
Ladies that I adore *part 1*
" I dont know what hurts the most; you and lucas sneaking around behind my back, or you lying about it to my face!"
"Girls--they just want someone to want them back"
"sometimes people play hard to get to make sure that the other person's feelings are real"
"This is all turning into one big love...rectangle-plus-one, whatever that is."
"The truth is, I don't really like to think about college. Cause that means high school's over.
After graduation, everyone will probably go play basketball. Or sing or start record labels, -and I'll have to start all over. Alone. I'm sure I'll be fine. But like I said, I don't like to think about it."
Ramadan and Syawal
My fasting so far is full, (no cuti yet) and I am loving it. Terawikh on the other hand, is one big black hole for me.
Still, the month is bless and I am feeling lucky.
Fasting in New Zealand is different from Malaysia. This time, I cook my own food unlike before, I usually bought them. No family big berbuka dishes, just great friends and house mates.
I love that I am able to fulfill all of my desire dish;
- kuih seri muka
- kuih keria
- bihun hailam
- nasi lemak
- chicken chop