Tuesday, June 30

For my dad

In this world full of hurt and pain,
I need someone who would help me through the rain.
To comfort me when Im sad,
Doing everything just to make me glad.

In this world I need a Brave Knight,
Who would never give up any fight.
A knight who would dry away my tears,
Telling me to overcome my fears.

A knight who loves me for who I am inside,
With him there's nothing more I need to hide.
A person who will still be standing strong,
Even though everything has gone wrong.

I need someone who is willing to give me more,
Someone I can call my Knight In Shining Armor.

Monday, June 29

From rugs to riches

I am currently in Sydney. Deym, I am loving the weather here. Sun shining everyday bebeh. I am in no need of sweater at all.

The other day, Mard held a small makan2 at her place. Inviting me and Faris as guests of honour. Or was it only me? Not to sure. Food was delicious. Company was great. We hang around for quite some time, talking aimlessly and reminiscing good old days.

To my main point - the whole session Faris kept on bugging me on how quiet I was. He kept forcing me to speak up and stop being so shy. I was not shy. I did enjoy the whole evening. But I did keep to myself a bit. I mean, I laughed at the jokes, smiled for the camera and enjoyed my food. Still, not my usual jovial self that he thought he always knew.

I guess, people do change.

I am more careful with my words nowadays. I always find myself thinking at random times. I am more selectives of people I chat with. I no longer become friends to my friends' friend. I choose certain close friends to share secrets. I don't blab about every gossips I know (only the important one). I tend to process every information I obtained longer.

I learn from my mistakes. Many mistakes. That brought tears and broke certain hearts. That unite some and divide the others.

That's what people do.

I celebrated my 22th birthday the othe day and so far I dare say I have change. For the better. I hope.

p/s: will blog about my birthday soon.

Sunday, June 28



Dah lebih lima belas bulan tak makan KFC dan McD. Akhirnya, berjaya!

Di Australia. Jauh aku mengembara mencari makanan.

Mard and Zaim kata, seronok tengok aku makan KFC. Macam bagi makan kepada kanak-kanak kebuluran. Hahaha.

Mungkin lusa aku bakal menjamah Opporto pula.

Thursday, June 25

on the way to Story Bridge by CityCat

kata mard:

kalau kurus pun tak semestinya cantik.

Saturday, June 20

shopping is therapy

never never ever judge a book by its cover.
i made that mistake before.
i wish i had not.
never judge a book by its cover.

Surfers Paradise

Wednesday, June 17

another wish on the list crossed

Sydney Airport

Brisbane & Gold Coast

all in a day

I want new shoes

Mard came to Auckland the other day. Most people know that since I held a small get together at my place. She came for only 8 days, which was not enough. I planned a perfect vacation for her. I felt my plan was superb. We went to Coromandel, Cathedral Cove, Auckland Domain, Victoria Market, Western Springs, Chocolate Boutique, Sky Tower (we did Sky Walk!) and Pt Chev. Most of the time, it was raining. Both of us caught flu.

I asked her, while she was here, did she think I have change. Before I asked here, I have this made up assumption of her answer moight be. I bet she gonna say that I have grown mature and forward thinking (because I think I am!).

I can't remember everything she said. Some of the things she said was my fashion sense is different. She did not mentioned if its good or bad. She said something like I sometimes dress girlie-like for top and maintaining my sorta independence look at bottom or vice versa. I never realized that. It's kinda a new revelation to me.

She also said that I no longer have my girls around me. She said I used to have two or three girls around me. To hangout, to gossip, to just be there, to eat out, to share opinions. I no longer have those. I laughed at myself hearing her comment. I have to admit that.

Life changes.

I'm yours

kita hanya kenal kawan sejati bila kita susah. itu lumrah. jadi, jangan cari aku jika kau susah. aku tak pandai selesaikan masalah. Aku boleh tolong dengar saja. Jika kau mahu kembali tersenyum, I'm your girl. Aku boleh tolong ko bersuka ria tatkala kau susah. Kadang-kadang, distraction is just what one needed.

Ten just texted me,

Cik zt, ak dgr ko dmam. bek ko cuba sedaya upaya baik kan diri sebelum dikurantinkan nanti.mkn ubat selsema panadol sume. ok?
Sometimes, one simple text can make one's day.

Sunday, June 7

femme fatale

You're mine
I'm yours

Hearing it even once is enough

what are you trying to do?

You are not supposed to say you miss your ex. To anyone. Especially not to your ex. In their face, or not. It is a known knowledge. The phrase brings out mix feelings. Deep buried feelings. For both parties. You are supposed to remain as friends. Respect that. Do not destroy what you and your ex have. Friends are good relationship. The greatest. Friends share stuff. Just not that feeling. Do not spoil that. Not with that kind of phrase. I miss you. You are being cruel to both sides if you do.

Saturday, June 6


"I don't mean to spread rumours
but what else can a girl do with it?"

-Nice girls finish last-